I didn’t want to blog until now, day three here in Buenos Aires. I felt like I would disappoint everyone because I couldn’t report something like, “It’s so amazing here, I love it, I feel great, life is A-Mazing!” I wanted to be able to say that SO BADLY, but the truth is, it was a rough transition. And it was hard for me to accept that because I felt like it shouldn’t be; this is a crazy awesome adventure and I’m so lucky to be here… I KNOW this, but I just wasn’t feeling it on days one and two.
I know myself well enough to know that change is kind of hard for me… I love my routines, my control, having my world full of clear expectations, so yeah, I should have known that it wouldn’t necessarily be 100 from the start. I was feeling lame about not loving it from the get-go. I was feeling super uncool. And I was missing my guy too… there was some sadness happening. I knew I would adjust and I wished it could happen immediately. Rich reminded me I have to be patient, and that that’s not really one of my strong suits. And he’s right. Like always. Damn.
I waged my own personal “It Gets Better” campaign with myself yesterday. “It’s going to work out. It’s going to be ok. It takes time,” I told myself. I found out yesterday evening that a new girl would be arriving the next morning and she would also stay with my host family, and that was cause for celebration! I had felt so lonely walking to school by myself on Monday, and I was super bummed to find that the class I placed into included 5 young boys and me, the lone lady. And the truth is, in general, I really don’t like being friends with boys as much as I like being friends with girls. And I’m calling them boys because they are… three of them are Swiss, one is English and another is from the US. Three of the boys from Europe are 19, and the one from the US just finished college, (not sure how old the fourth European is cause he ditched class today, which makes me feel pretty sure he’s young too). 😉 At 29, I’m the old maid. Yep. The one, aged lady in the group. The boys have been at the school for weeks already and the first day a couple of them were kind of being little shits, especially in the second of our two classes, our conversation class, which was taught by a sub and she wasn’t very good… I was a little discouraged.
And something else cast a dark cloud over my whole day, and it was self-induced… I was wearing THE WORST pants/shoe combination ever!! It was a combo I would never wear in the states, and have never worn before. Huge mistake. I felt so awkward! It took my already low self-esteem down a few more notches. And all day while roaming the streets and at school I felt like everyone was looking and judging me. And all of the ladies in Buenos Aires were strolling around in boots and leggings and other much better looking combinations. Even old ladies! The saying, “Change your shoes, change y0ur life” has never felt so true. And if you’re wondering what I was wearing, I had the brilliant idea to wear my exercise-type shoes with straight leg jeans because I knew I would be doing a lot of walking, since I had 4 hours to kill after taking my placement exam in the morning and waiting for my classes to start at 2:00 in the afternoon. I thought this was an awesome idea, but the shoes actually gave me little blisters because they’re new, and I couldn’t have felt more ugly or self-conscience. I will NEVER sacrifice style for comfort again… in Argentina.
But I’m sooooo happy to say that today, day three, things actually did get better! Woot!
The new student arrived and her name is Julianna and she’s 26, in medical school, originally from Kenya, super nice, totally interesting, seemingly un-phased by anything and adventurous. We took off this morning toward a part of town near our house that some people at school recommended, Palermo. We walked around a bit and the streets were much more calm and good-looking. I realized my last couple of days have been spent walking up and down the same busy, smoggy street, Avienda Santa Fe, and it was such a good move to finally get away from there.
We stopped at a little place for lunch and I had some Italian-inspired empanadas. Mmmmmm, they were delish! The one with the greens had something like Serano ham, mozzarella and arugula, and I also had one with something like pepperoni and cheese and part of another with chicken. My first super awesome food- YES! This is the stuff that I get a serious boner for.
While I’m talking food, I have to say, I found the best cookie ever: The amazing Alfajor. They’re sold individually, they’re huge, I’m totally obsessed, and I’m going to bring like 600 of them home with me. Yesterday, after my discouraging day at school, I bought 3 on the way home and binge ate them as a pick me up. Food makes me feel good and I don’t give a fuck if that’s not healthy, or whatever. My fave version of these sandwich cookies have something like two layers of soft, fat graham-like cookies with dulce de leche between the layers and the whole deal is coated in chocolate. Holla if you want me to bring you one back. You won’t be sorry.
I had two more today… Tried the fruit filled, white candy-coated one and had to have another chocolate, of course.
Other than food, I really do enjoy looking around and exploring this big city.
I took a couple of pix of the street and a city garden and that was a nice way to spend some time, or “pasar tiempo.”
- There’s much more to say but I’m tired so it will have to wait till next time. =-)
Buenos noches!